Monday, July 6, 2015

Wrapping it UP

Hello there dear readers!
Anyone still there?
Yoo whooo.
To be honest, I highly doubt anyone still checks this blog out. But that's okay.
I, myself, pretty much stopped doing that after a while. I'm not sure what it was: the daily stress of life, the colossal challenge of drafting something worthy of blogging, or just being lost in a sea of uncertainty but essentially I was more intimidated and stressed out by the idea of running this blog than I enjoyed it so I stopped. I did a lot in the meantime. I took more classes, I had some fun projects, took some nice photos, and life was okay. I'm not going to lie, these past few months have been a lot of pensive reflecting. I've been having a lot of those 'existential crisis' moments and 'what is life' type questions so I didn't really have the time to make quality updates.

All in all, I think I might have weighed myself down with expectations of what I wanted this space instead of just going out and doing it. I'm sorry about that, guys. I know it must be pretty disappointing to get an update like this and I feel pretty crappy about it but I think it's for the best if I retire this blog for now. Plus it's also very weird to me because I feel like I've changed substantially as a person from the time I started this blog and looking at it now, I'm not sure it's a good representation of me so I'm not too keen on keeping it around.

I find it a bit ironic that around the time of my one-year anniversary instead of celebrating I'm calling it quits. Haha. Sorry, everyone! I just felt like this project wasn't going anywhere and after many struggled attempts to rejuvenate it with new life, I feel like it's time to throw in the towel. Sometimes it's important to recognize when something isn't worth the energy anymore and for me and for this, the time was now. My apologies again to anyone who was a dedicated reader to this blog. I hope you can understand my reasoning for why I am closing down shop. And don't fear! While this particular place might not be present anymore, I will still be around! I will most definitely continue reading all your blogs and commenting on your stuff. I'm always interested in what  you all are up to! Plus I'm contemplating trying this again so perhaps keep an eye out for that if you're very keen on reading up on my life. Well, until that link for a new blog pops up, I think that's it. I hope enjoyed the snippets we had and enjoyed yourselves as much as I did. I hope to see you all sometime somewhere in the future. And for a parting gift, here's a fun little song that always comes in mind for me when I think of goodbyes.

Peace out, everyone! I love you loads! Stay awesome!

Saturday, February 28, 2015

February's Homework Assignment

Oh nosss! I almost forgot to do this month's homework assignment from Professor Z! This month has been  honestly way too chaotic so my apologies about that; hopefully March will be more merciful. In any case, here's the prompt:

I'd like for you to blog about the most beautiful piece of music that you've ever heard. Keep in mind this isn't about a piece of music that influenced you or is part of the soundtrack of your life. Rather, it's music that aesthetically moves you. Please tell us what the piece of music is, who composed/wrote it, why you love it, and how it moves you. And if you want to be visual, show us images that you associate with this music.

Man, this is such a fabulous topic! There are so many moving, touching pieces of music out there but one specifically jumps out to me when I read this prompt. And that one is: "I"ll Fall With Your Knife" by Peter Murphy.
Here's a link to the song in case anyone wants to listen to it:

I'm not sure what it is about this song --perhaps the surreal opening, the soulful highs and lows of Peter's voice, or the poetic beauty of the lyrics-- but it just touches me to the core. I'm pretty sure Peter Murphy wrote the lyrics along with singing it and that just makes it all the more meaningful to me. This was one of first songs I heard from Peter (the first was Instant Karma) and I was (still am) honestly mesmerized by his voice. It's unbelievable what he can do with it and how absolutely phenomenal he sounds, really. Before I heard this song, I didn't believe it was humanly possible but his voice proved otherwise.  "I'll Fall With Your Knife" really captured that unique aura of his voice and I like how seamlessly it transitions from one distinct sound to another (they introduce like 3 different elements/instruments and it's done so well you don't even realize it until you give it another listen).

Whenever I hear this song, it's like I get swept away. It just washes over me. Everything else in the world suddenly disappears and loses meaning, I'm fully absorbed in the song. It transports me out of this realm to another place, somewhere ethereal, otherworldly, and preternatural, beyond this world. And when the background singers start chanting, it's hard not to get carried away to that place, somewhere more marvelous than this one. I have no idea how to describe it and I know I sound like a mystic right now but, it's just downright magical. I've got no other way to define how this song makes me feel. Every single line speaks to me astutely, I couldn't even start picking one apart to show you. The metaphors are so intertwined and so poetic, you just have to hear the whole. I've always read it as a beautiful demonstration of love, as a declaration of love to someone and that just makes it all the more touching. Isn't a love that's willing to fall with your knife the best love you could ever find? And that's why I love this song so much. It moves me so profoundly.

I remember being completely obsessed with it when when I first found it. It was the only thing I'd listen to for weeks. I'd force my friends to listen to it, I'd play it on repeat at home, I even inscribed part of the lyrics in my signature on an online forum (lol back when that was cool). In fact, this song was how I found one of the best friends I've ever had. We bonded over this song, Peter Murphy, and other stuff. That was back in high school (which was a long time ago now) and we've drifted since but this song still reminds me of how rewarding being true to yourself is. When you're genuinely yourself, the people you find are the ones worth keeping. I'd never have learned that if it wasn't for this song. This song was also the start of my induction into Goth, the flowering of my love for Peter Murphy, and many other things. For that reason, it holds such a special place in my heart. It brings out such a powerful emotion and sensation for me. It like wrenches my heart (in a good way) and I always end up crying (or getting very teary-eyed) when I hear it. And that's not just because of the memories, but because of the beauty of the words and sounds all put together. It truly is a beautiful sound.

Alright, well this is getting mighty long so I'll just leave it at that. But yeah, this song is one of my favorite and I'm glad I was able to share it with you all. Let me know what your favorite songs are below and please please please give this one a listen to and tell me what you think.

P.S. There was this one very specific fan-made music video for this song that I always think of when I hear this song but I can't seem to find it anywhere. If I do, I"ll post it here but if not, I just thought I'd explain why I don't have any visual aspect to this entry. (Update: found the image thumbnail of the video but unfortunately it seems the video itself was taken down by youtube b/c of copyright things sad face :(


Saturday, February 21, 2015

A Word

Hello Folks!
How's your life going? I hope everyone's doing well. Enjoying life, having a blast. Partaking in all the wonderful things that come with having a brain and body. The bread and butter of existence, no?!

Me, I've been ok... Man, this year has been off to such a rocky start. I've got so many things going on and a whole 'nother slew of things I don't want to deal with. The ups and downs have been taking their tolls. I have days where the ups are enough to keep me floating and others where the tide just pulls me down to the deep end. I've been so focused on just surviving I haven't even given my creative side much thought. But keeping that in mind, I'm going to be real honest with you all. I'm in a bit of a funk. The funk about my blog. I'm not really sure what I want to do with it anymore. I started out with such a clear vision: crafts, DIY, art, done. But looking at the labels, I went all over the place and kinda did everything but that. lol. Guess I got pretty lost.

I think I just need to have a clearer vision before I dive in. Perhaps I should focus a bit more on fashion, clothes, and stuff? Do OOTDs and all that jazz? Or maybe it's time I devote to sewing, take the plunge and post only bout that? Or pay better attention to my subculture? I'm not sure. But I promise, I'm trying to figure it out. It's kinda tricky but I've resolved that I'm going to do it. Side tangent: Weirdly enough, whatever I do end up doing just doesn't satisfy me. I'm just unhappy and unsatisfied by whatever end result I do churn out. Maybe it's the curse of being a perfectionist. But nothing is ever good enough. I always just focus on how I could've done it better if I just had more (time, better camera, etc. etc.).  

This year's going to be different, I swear.
But, these are all really lousy and crappy excuses. I can't keep going on like this making one measly decent post a month and every other post is an apology for my sub-par content and lack of updates otherwise. Nope that's just depressing. It won't do. As such, I'm going to take care of this matter myself. I promise to get to the bottom of it. As tempting as it is to just quit and call it a day, I'm not taking that easy way out. You can't just quit a blog every time things get ugly and start over. No, that's cowardly in my book. I'm going to trudge forward no matter how icky it gets. So my apologies if I continue to stumble and sporadic post or suddenly change my layout/theme colors/etc. Know it isn't a demonstration of fickleness more so just my thrashing and kicking from trying to navigate the mess and confusion of my own waters. So I hope you don't mind if I let things sit in frost and snow until the spring rains wake me up. I'll have this settled by the first day of spring, promise. Until then, I hope you can bear with me. As always, thank you from the bottom of my heart for your support and I shall see you again when the sun shines stronger! Lots of Love!

Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Blogmopolitan Quiz: Part 2

Hey Everyone!
Sooo I found a cute little linkup hosted by the gorgeous Erin and I just could've resist doing one myself. It's for Valentine's Day and I know I'm pretty late but I figured it'd be fun anyways.

Click to enlarge (it makes reading easier)
If you really want to know what I did this Valentine's Day, I was actually very productive. I volunteered to supervise one event at the Science Olympiad and it was really fun and exciting but took up most of the day. I also did a little work but nothing too exciting. Now enough about me, what did you all do? Anyone have some lovey-dovey stuff with their special someone? Let me know in the comments below! :)

Sunday, February 15, 2015

Goth Gushing: Crimson Peak

Dear Readers,I would like to interrupt our regularly scheduled (boring) broadcasting of "Sara's sorry she hasn't posted in forever but still has nothing good to share" to bring you a sincere session of GOTH GUSHING.

Today's topic is the oh-so-amazing new trailer out for the year's upcoming film Crimson Peak.
In case anyone hasn't watched this glorious piece of media, here's the 2 minutes of perfection:

If you want a bit of story to this too short clip, the site basically sums it up as, "a haunting gothic horror story... In the aftermath of a family tragedy, an aspiring author is torn between love for her childhood friend and the temptation of a mysterious outsider. Trying to escape the ghosts of her past, she is swept away to a house that breathes, bleeds… and remembers."

Isn't it just fabulous? I honestly cannot get enough of it. I've already rewatched it a few times: playing, pausing, fawning, playing (and then repeating). There are so many elements of this film I'm digging. The atmosphere, music, costuming, set design, actors, etc. etc. I just need to take a minute to admire this. 

Like, let's start with the stellar lineup they've got. First off, I'll literally watch anything if it's got Tom Hiddleston in it (he's like a pale, high cheek-boned Adonis). But then they had to go put him in these beautiful dark, time period clothes (dat black satin) and bam, he's like a Victorian Goth God. I'm literally swooning over here. And if that wasn't good enough the film's got Charlie Hunnam too?! And he's got this manly yet earnest boy-next-door look to him that's just so fresh. Charlie's been playing all these rugged, gritty guys lately so it's nice to see him in this role (granted, I feel like he's still pretty manly but I think that's on purpose so he can be a love interest and/or prince rescuer). Tom & Charlie might just be my two favorite men in Hollywood and now they're in the same film?! It's too awesome. Tom just looks sooo exquisite. I feel like the comments sum it up rather nicely. That much eye candy in one film should be a crime.
And let's not forget Mia Wasikowska (who's super fantastic at quirky) and Jim Beaver (Supernatural, anyone?). And, of course, it's all orchestrated by none other than Guillermo del Toro (this guy's tortured genius just gets creepy down so well. I even liked Pacific Rim!). The people they got together for this is just amazing. If they're any indicator at how the film will be, count me in.

Man, just look at these two.
So. much. awesome.
The narrative itself seems to follow a lot of typical conventions (aka fancy words for it's a tad cliche): the mysterious tall dark & handsome stranger, the innocent naive bride, her noble childhood flame, the eerie stern older sister (I have to confess tho I'm a real chump for the weird sibling trope. idk what it is about it; it just amplifies the overall sinister creepiness to me), etc. But I'm actually kinda excited and interested in seeing how Toro plays with these archetypes. Like, just watching his flavor of them looks interesting from this cliip. And come on, who doesn't love a good old spooky horror story? Even if the plot sounds a bit conventional, there's nothing wrong with a well done gothic story. I'm just dying to know how the story unfolds (what are those huge eerie machines that we see twice in the clip? what's with the sister and her piano? why were the kids kept in attic?). It might be a bit predictable but I like the genre so something tells me I'll probably like this.

Oh, and, of course, scary bathroom spooks! (in case you haven't seen that one before) But jokes aside, I actually think I like the creepy things in the film so far. The supernatural spooky elements have been handled rather nicely. Like, it isn't so frightening or disturbing that I just want to go hide and cry (oh hello amnesia and outlast) but it's not benign and childish either. They disturb you alright, just not that badly, I suppose (read: I think wimpy me might actually be able to handle this level of scariness). The creepiness is just right for this Gothilocks.
I have to confess though, in some ways Crimson Peak really reminds me a lot of the Tim Burton aesthetic. (Quick tangent: is anyone else low key devastated that Tim Burton and Helena Carter split up? Hollywood goth couple gone. It makes me so sad. I'm just going to curl up in my Sweeney Todd PJs and cry over ice cream while I rewatch Corpse Bride) Like the color scheme has more variety than Burton usually does (think Nightmare before Christmas) but Crimson Peak still has this vividly dark nature to everything that's placed in stark contrast to our heroine with her innocent, light, warm aura and white fairy-like dresses. Burton does that often in his films as well. He'll have a world of darker hues and then one singular female who's this glowing vision of white (White Queen, Johanna, etc. this article explains it better). But then again, Crimson Peak is a lot more serious and morbid than Burton. It takes itself very seriously. Burton, if i may dare say so, almost shies away from delivering blunt straightforward horror. He's always got this twang and quirky sass that makes his movies less spooky and more kooky. Crimson Peak is like the exact opposite. It's all spook. But I like that. It looks like a good addition to the genre.

Anyways, I'll stop the over-analyzing and just say I'm really looking forward to this movie. If the trailer is any indication, this movie looks like it's going to be great. It looks so incredibly good that I might actually want to go see it in a theatre. And THAT, is saying a lot for me (I almost never watch movies in the cinema so that's why it's a huge compliment). I'm already so excited for this. Is it okay if I start counting down the days from today? I know it's in October (Why is that month so far awayyy) but still... It sounds like the best Halloween present ever. I think I might just give myself a goth orgasm over it. LOL but all exaggerations aside, it looks like a great movie and I hope you all will give it a chance and check it out too! Well this fangirl is drained out so I'm out but I hope you had fun. Take care!

Thursday, January 29, 2015

January's Homework Assignment

Oh, wow, January has been a whirlwind of busy, frenzied chaos and trouble. It's just been such a nightmare, too much havoc for my taste. I've had the experience of realizing why taking 20 units isn't such a good idea. That's largely the reason I haven't posted anything. It's just been too crazy. Hopefully next month will be better. However, before I kiss this month goodbye (for good), I thought it'd be fun to partake in the customary monthly blog, hosted by the ever so fabulous (and recently crowned Dr.) Curious Professor Z!

So, without any further ado, here is the prompt:

Show your crafting/art/sewing/knitting/crochet works in progress and the projects that you want to tackle in the next few months. What's on your cutting table? What's in your knitting basket? Did you just buy four new skeins of yarn for that shawl you've been meaning to make? Is there a canvas in the corner of your room just begging for some paint? Show us what you've been up to and what you are planning. 

Ok, before I start, can I just say how much I love love love love this prompt!! It's like the Professor read my mind! I am oh so guilty of crafting (and the half finished or not even started projects that entails) along with hoarding (don’t forget the hoarding!). In fact, I have an entire corner I have affectionately dubbed the "crafting corner"; one because that's an alliteration and I love those and two because I really don't know how else to refer to the growing glob of projects I’m accumulating. Just this month, I actually got myself a small table that way I could keep all the crafts I'm working on in one place. Here’s a nice pic of it:
I know, I know not that glamorous and a bit messy but it's a new addition
I'm still getting used to it :)
Now, in regards to my projects, I actually have a bit of a system so let me give you a quick run. Basically, I have two big (completely full) boxes of projects (kinda like an inventory). I’ve cataloged what is in each one here and here (there's also one more box but shh, I like to tell myself there are only two). But those are like my master checklists; they have all my crafty/creative stuff in one place. I like having them for reference; they make me feel organized (and sane). Plus they’re good blackmail; I have recently put an embargo on myself that I won’t buy any more fabric or crafty stuff until one (or some) of these box projects have been taken care of. So far this plan has been working. The crafting and buying is on hold for now (thanks a lot physics!). Usually it’s just one (and I think you all know which one that is ;). Honestly, I like having the boxes and checklists because they give me a nice system. I have a good idea of what’s going on: what I already own, what’s in progress, what needs repair, what I should be working on, etc.
Left: The 2 boxes making their first appearance. 
Top Right: Current Projects
Bottom Right: A glimpse into Box 3
So that’s what I’ve got planned (future-wise) but in terms of what in IP (in progress) as of right now, that’s in this other box (are you starting to see a trend here? I like boxing things). I keep that box on my crafting table and take projects out as I go. Currently, I have two skirts I’m trying to make. One is from this cloth I found thrifting and the other is this very cheap but too big dress I bought in Kohls. I’m hoping to finish those up really soon though and then hopefully start on some jewelry making (my pliers recently broke so I’m waiting on some new ones). Soo yeah, that’s what I’ve got going. How about you? Do any of you have a system to keep things in check or do you just do projects on a whim? What are you all working on?

P.S.  Hope you enjoyed the photos! They're not that great but I'm working on it! Haha you  may have noticed I don't normally have lots of photos (camera, quality, time, etc. issues) but I'm trying to incorporate them more this year. We'll see how it goes! :)

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Resolutions Update

Remember those New Years & Bat Fit resolutions I made?  Yeah, don't worry, me neither.
So to give everyone a much needed reminder. I'd basically resolved to:

1-Manage my time better
2-Do better academically
3-Think bout my future
4-Be creative
5-Be adult-ish

6-Lose 20 pounds
8-Eat better
9-Sleep better
10-Blog better

Mmm, man, I wish I could say I've been following them but to be totally honest, classes started, things got stressful, and I proceeded to completely forget about these. Hahaha. Oops.

On the plus side, I kinda made some progress on a few of these. I took the bus for the first time (went to school and came back all by myself. Woo for being a grown up!). I went to jury duty, got my first key made (fun fact, I got a key to our research lab before I got a house key. Haha how weird is that? I like to joke it shows how committed I am to science XD), and am going to take my DMV test on Monday. So yay seems like I'm doing really well on #5 on the list.

Plus, I've been challenging myself to do something that kinda scares me at least once a month. You know small things (like talking to strangers in the elevator or telling someone what I honestly think) to get myself to step out of my comfort zone and trying something new. It's been a bit scary but also exciting and fun. I've learned a lot. I think I'd also count that as being adult-ish and creative, too. I've also been keeping a jar where I put in good things that have happened to me (thanks Professor Z for that wonderful idea!) and been thinking bout my blog so I think that gets #4 & #10 a tad too. I've prioritized sleep (#9) over all-nighters (#2) a few times as well so I'm not sure whether that counts or not. It's like I kept one resolution at the expense of the other haha.

To be real though, the other numbers I haven't even thought about. The most glaring is #1 Time Management. The more reckless I am about how I spend my time, the more I realize how valuable and important it is. It's like this academic session was a colossal mess and all because I couldn't get my time in order. So yeah. I've really got to work on that. My eating and exercising could use some help, too. I haven't done anything remotely physical and swing from the extremes of either eating too much or too little (aka starving myself. so no bueno). That needs some overdue attention. Not to mention, I'm running away from my academics and future again. So yeah. I guess I could use some work on a lot of these but for now, I'm just going to celebrate my successes with some soup and pledge for better tomorrow.

How have your resolutions been coming? Let me know in the comments below! :)

Saturday, January 10, 2015

Third Box Checklist

Guess who has another box of crafts to do? XD Yup, me. Anywhoo, here's the list of stuff in this one:
1. Gray kyrta
2. HJP Turtlenecks
3. Color Block Shirt
4. Turtlenecks
5. Pattern Black Shirt
6. Black lace
7. Black & White lace
8. Hawaiian Fabrics (3)
11. Black Blouse
12. Blue Pattern Jacket
13. Black & White Shirt (w/ xx pattern)
14. Black & Purple & Gray Checkered Shirt
15. Wooden Penguins
16. Spikes
17. Jewels (Black ones)
18. Jewelry to make
a. Gold Geometric Shapes
b. Eyes
c. Fler de iris
d. Necklace
19. Joanne’s place fabric (black w/ pattern)
20. Pearls