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Monday, July 6, 2015

Wrapping it UP

Hello there dear readers!
Anyone still there?
Yoo whooo.
To be honest, I highly doubt anyone still checks this blog out. But that's okay.
I, myself, pretty much stopped doing that after a while. I'm not sure what it was: the daily stress of life, the colossal challenge of drafting something worthy of blogging, or just being lost in a sea of uncertainty but essentially I was more intimidated and stressed out by the idea of running this blog than I enjoyed it so I stopped. I did a lot in the meantime. I took more classes, I had some fun projects, took some nice photos, and life was okay. I'm not going to lie, these past few months have been a lot of pensive reflecting. I've been having a lot of those 'existential crisis' moments and 'what is life' type questions so I didn't really have the time to make quality updates.

All in all, I think I might have weighed myself down with expectations of what I wanted this space instead of just going out and doing it. I'm sorry about that, guys. I know it must be pretty disappointing to get an update like this and I feel pretty crappy about it but I think it's for the best if I retire this blog for now. Plus it's also very weird to me because I feel like I've changed substantially as a person from the time I started this blog and looking at it now, I'm not sure it's a good representation of me so I'm not too keen on keeping it around.

I find it a bit ironic that around the time of my one-year anniversary instead of celebrating I'm calling it quits. Haha. Sorry, everyone! I just felt like this project wasn't going anywhere and after many struggled attempts to rejuvenate it with new life, I feel like it's time to throw in the towel. Sometimes it's important to recognize when something isn't worth the energy anymore and for me and for this, the time was now. My apologies again to anyone who was a dedicated reader to this blog. I hope you can understand my reasoning for why I am closing down shop. And don't fear! While this particular place might not be present anymore, I will still be around! I will most definitely continue reading all your blogs and commenting on your stuff. I'm always interested in what  you all are up to! Plus I'm contemplating trying this again so perhaps keep an eye out for that if you're very keen on reading up on my life. Well, until that link for a new blog pops up, I think that's it. I hope enjoyed the snippets we had and enjoyed yourselves as much as I did. I hope to see you all sometime somewhere in the future. And for a parting gift, here's a fun little song that always comes in mind for me when I think of goodbyes.


Peace out, everyone! I love you loads! Stay awesome!
-SW

Saturday, February 28, 2015

February's Homework Assignment

Oh nosss! I almost forgot to do this month's homework assignment from Professor Z! This month has been  honestly way too chaotic so my apologies about that; hopefully March will be more merciful. In any case, here's the prompt:

I'd like for you to blog about the most beautiful piece of music that you've ever heard. Keep in mind this isn't about a piece of music that influenced you or is part of the soundtrack of your life. Rather, it's music that aesthetically moves you. Please tell us what the piece of music is, who composed/wrote it, why you love it, and how it moves you. And if you want to be visual, show us images that you associate with this music.

Man, this is such a fabulous topic! There are so many moving, touching pieces of music out there but one specifically jumps out to me when I read this prompt. And that one is: "I"ll Fall With Your Knife" by Peter Murphy.
Here's a link to the song in case anyone wants to listen to it:



I'm not sure what it is about this song --perhaps the surreal opening, the soulful highs and lows of Peter's voice, or the poetic beauty of the lyrics-- but it just touches me to the core. I'm pretty sure Peter Murphy wrote the lyrics along with singing it and that just makes it all the more meaningful to me. This was one of first songs I heard from Peter (the first was Instant Karma) and I was (still am) honestly mesmerized by his voice. It's unbelievable what he can do with it and how absolutely phenomenal he sounds, really. Before I heard this song, I didn't believe it was humanly possible but his voice proved otherwise.  "I'll Fall With Your Knife" really captured that unique aura of his voice and I like how seamlessly it transitions from one distinct sound to another (they introduce like 3 different elements/instruments and it's done so well you don't even realize it until you give it another listen).

Whenever I hear this song, it's like I get swept away. It just washes over me. Everything else in the world suddenly disappears and loses meaning, I'm fully absorbed in the song. It transports me out of this realm to another place, somewhere ethereal, otherworldly, and preternatural, beyond this world. And when the background singers start chanting, it's hard not to get carried away to that place, somewhere more marvelous than this one. I have no idea how to describe it and I know I sound like a mystic right now but, it's just downright magical. I've got no other way to define how this song makes me feel. Every single line speaks to me astutely, I couldn't even start picking one apart to show you. The metaphors are so intertwined and so poetic, you just have to hear the whole. I've always read it as a beautiful demonstration of love, as a declaration of love to someone and that just makes it all the more touching. Isn't a love that's willing to fall with your knife the best love you could ever find? And that's why I love this song so much. It moves me so profoundly.

I remember being completely obsessed with it when when I first found it. It was the only thing I'd listen to for weeks. I'd force my friends to listen to it, I'd play it on repeat at home, I even inscribed part of the lyrics in my signature on an online forum (lol back when that was cool). In fact, this song was how I found one of the best friends I've ever had. We bonded over this song, Peter Murphy, and other stuff. That was back in high school (which was a long time ago now) and we've drifted since but this song still reminds me of how rewarding being true to yourself is. When you're genuinely yourself, the people you find are the ones worth keeping. I'd never have learned that if it wasn't for this song. This song was also the start of my induction into Goth, the flowering of my love for Peter Murphy, and many other things. For that reason, it holds such a special place in my heart. It brings out such a powerful emotion and sensation for me. It like wrenches my heart (in a good way) and I always end up crying (or getting very teary-eyed) when I hear it. And that's not just because of the memories, but because of the beauty of the words and sounds all put together. It truly is a beautiful sound.

Alright, well this is getting mighty long so I'll just leave it at that. But yeah, this song is one of my favorite and I'm glad I was able to share it with you all. Let me know what your favorite songs are below and please please please give this one a listen to and tell me what you think.
Cheers!

P.S. There was this one very specific fan-made music video for this song that I always think of when I hear this song but I can't seem to find it anywhere. If I do, I"ll post it here but if not, I just thought I'd explain why I don't have any visual aspect to this entry. (Update: found the image thumbnail of the video but unfortunately it seems the video itself was taken down by youtube b/c of copyright things sad face :(

 

Saturday, February 21, 2015

A Word

Hello Folks!
How's your life going? I hope everyone's doing well. Enjoying life, having a blast. Partaking in all the wonderful things that come with having a brain and body. The bread and butter of existence, no?!

Me, I've been ok... Man, this year has been off to such a rocky start. I've got so many things going on and a whole 'nother slew of things I don't want to deal with. The ups and downs have been taking their tolls. I have days where the ups are enough to keep me floating and others where the tide just pulls me down to the deep end. I've been so focused on just surviving I haven't even given my creative side much thought. But keeping that in mind, I'm going to be real honest with you all. I'm in a bit of a funk. The funk about my blog. I'm not really sure what I want to do with it anymore. I started out with such a clear vision: crafts, DIY, art, done. But looking at the labels, I went all over the place and kinda did everything but that. lol. Guess I got pretty lost.

I think I just need to have a clearer vision before I dive in. Perhaps I should focus a bit more on fashion, clothes, and stuff? Do OOTDs and all that jazz? Or maybe it's time I devote to sewing, take the plunge and post only bout that? Or pay better attention to my subculture? I'm not sure. But I promise, I'm trying to figure it out. It's kinda tricky but I've resolved that I'm going to do it. Side tangent: Weirdly enough, whatever I do end up doing just doesn't satisfy me. I'm just unhappy and unsatisfied by whatever end result I do churn out. Maybe it's the curse of being a perfectionist. But nothing is ever good enough. I always just focus on how I could've done it better if I just had more (time, better camera, etc. etc.).  

This year's going to be different, I swear.
But, these are all really lousy and crappy excuses. I can't keep going on like this making one measly decent post a month and every other post is an apology for my sub-par content and lack of updates otherwise. Nope that's just depressing. It won't do. As such, I'm going to take care of this matter myself. I promise to get to the bottom of it. As tempting as it is to just quit and call it a day, I'm not taking that easy way out. You can't just quit a blog every time things get ugly and start over. No, that's cowardly in my book. I'm going to trudge forward no matter how icky it gets. So my apologies if I continue to stumble and sporadic post or suddenly change my layout/theme colors/etc. Know it isn't a demonstration of fickleness more so just my thrashing and kicking from trying to navigate the mess and confusion of my own waters. So I hope you don't mind if I let things sit in frost and snow until the spring rains wake me up. I'll have this settled by the first day of spring, promise. Until then, I hope you can bear with me. As always, thank you from the bottom of my heart for your support and I shall see you again when the sun shines stronger! Lots of Love!

Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Blogmopolitan Quiz: Part 2

Hey Everyone!
Sooo I found a cute little linkup hosted by the gorgeous Erin and I just could've resist doing one myself. It's for Valentine's Day and I know I'm pretty late but I figured it'd be fun anyways.

Click to enlarge (it makes reading easier)
If you really want to know what I did this Valentine's Day, I was actually very productive. I volunteered to supervise one event at the Science Olympiad and it was really fun and exciting but took up most of the day. I also did a little work but nothing too exciting. Now enough about me, what did you all do? Anyone have some lovey-dovey stuff with their special someone? Let me know in the comments below! :)

Sunday, February 15, 2015

Goth Gushing: Crimson Peak

Dear Readers,I would like to interrupt our regularly scheduled (boring) broadcasting of "Sara's sorry she hasn't posted in forever but still has nothing good to share" to bring you a sincere session of GOTH GUSHING.

Today's topic is the oh-so-amazing new trailer out for the year's upcoming film Crimson Peak.
In case anyone hasn't watched this glorious piece of media, here's the 2 minutes of perfection:



If you want a bit of story to this too short clip, the site basically sums it up as, "a haunting gothic horror story... In the aftermath of a family tragedy, an aspiring author is torn between love for her childhood friend and the temptation of a mysterious outsider. Trying to escape the ghosts of her past, she is swept away to a house that breathes, bleeds… and remembers."

Isn't it just fabulous? I honestly cannot get enough of it. I've already rewatched it a few times: playing, pausing, fawning, playing (and then repeating). There are so many elements of this film I'm digging. The atmosphere, music, costuming, set design, actors, etc. etc. I just need to take a minute to admire this. 

Like, let's start with the stellar lineup they've got. First off, I'll literally watch anything if it's got Tom Hiddleston in it (he's like a pale, high cheek-boned Adonis). But then they had to go put him in these beautiful dark, time period clothes (dat black satin) and bam, he's like a Victorian Goth God. I'm literally swooning over here. And if that wasn't good enough the film's got Charlie Hunnam too?! And he's got this manly yet earnest boy-next-door look to him that's just so fresh. Charlie's been playing all these rugged, gritty guys lately so it's nice to see him in this role (granted, I feel like he's still pretty manly but I think that's on purpose so he can be a love interest and/or prince rescuer). Tom & Charlie might just be my two favorite men in Hollywood and now they're in the same film?! It's too awesome. Tom just looks sooo exquisite. I feel like the comments sum it up rather nicely. That much eye candy in one film should be a crime.
And let's not forget Mia Wasikowska (who's super fantastic at quirky) and Jim Beaver (Supernatural, anyone?). And, of course, it's all orchestrated by none other than Guillermo del Toro (this guy's tortured genius just gets creepy down so well. I even liked Pacific Rim!). The people they got together for this is just amazing. If they're any indicator at how the film will be, count me in.

Man, just look at these two.
So. much. awesome.
The narrative itself seems to follow a lot of typical conventions (aka fancy words for it's a tad cliche): the mysterious tall dark & handsome stranger, the innocent naive bride, her noble childhood flame, the eerie stern older sister (I have to confess tho I'm a real chump for the weird sibling trope. idk what it is about it; it just amplifies the overall sinister creepiness to me), etc. But I'm actually kinda excited and interested in seeing how Toro plays with these archetypes. Like, just watching his flavor of them looks interesting from this cliip. And come on, who doesn't love a good old spooky horror story? Even if the plot sounds a bit conventional, there's nothing wrong with a well done gothic story. I'm just dying to know how the story unfolds (what are those huge eerie machines that we see twice in the clip? what's with the sister and her piano? why were the kids kept in attic?). It might be a bit predictable but I like the genre so something tells me I'll probably like this.

Oh, and, of course, scary bathroom spooks! (in case you haven't seen that one before) But jokes aside, I actually think I like the creepy things in the film so far. The supernatural spooky elements have been handled rather nicely. Like, it isn't so frightening or disturbing that I just want to go hide and cry (oh hello amnesia and outlast) but it's not benign and childish either. They disturb you alright, just not that badly, I suppose (read: I think wimpy me might actually be able to handle this level of scariness). The creepiness is just right for this Gothilocks.
I have to confess though, in some ways Crimson Peak really reminds me a lot of the Tim Burton aesthetic. (Quick tangent: is anyone else low key devastated that Tim Burton and Helena Carter split up? Hollywood goth couple gone. It makes me so sad. I'm just going to curl up in my Sweeney Todd PJs and cry over ice cream while I rewatch Corpse Bride) Like the color scheme has more variety than Burton usually does (think Nightmare before Christmas) but Crimson Peak still has this vividly dark nature to everything that's placed in stark contrast to our heroine with her innocent, light, warm aura and white fairy-like dresses. Burton does that often in his films as well. He'll have a world of darker hues and then one singular female who's this glowing vision of white (White Queen, Johanna, etc. this article explains it better). But then again, Crimson Peak is a lot more serious and morbid than Burton. It takes itself very seriously. Burton, if i may dare say so, almost shies away from delivering blunt straightforward horror. He's always got this twang and quirky sass that makes his movies less spooky and more kooky. Crimson Peak is like the exact opposite. It's all spook. But I like that. It looks like a good addition to the genre.

Anyways, I'll stop the over-analyzing and just say I'm really looking forward to this movie. If the trailer is any indication, this movie looks like it's going to be great. It looks so incredibly good that I might actually want to go see it in a theatre. And THAT, is saying a lot for me (I almost never watch movies in the cinema so that's why it's a huge compliment). I'm already so excited for this. Is it okay if I start counting down the days from today? I know it's in October (Why is that month so far awayyy) but still... It sounds like the best Halloween present ever. I think I might just give myself a goth orgasm over it. LOL but all exaggerations aside, it looks like a great movie and I hope you all will give it a chance and check it out too! Well this fangirl is drained out so I'm out but I hope you had fun. Take care!

Thursday, January 29, 2015

January's Homework Assignment

Oh, wow, January has been a whirlwind of busy, frenzied chaos and trouble. It's just been such a nightmare, too much havoc for my taste. I've had the experience of realizing why taking 20 units isn't such a good idea. That's largely the reason I haven't posted anything. It's just been too crazy. Hopefully next month will be better. However, before I kiss this month goodbye (for good), I thought it'd be fun to partake in the customary monthly blog, hosted by the ever so fabulous (and recently crowned Dr.) Curious Professor Z!

So, without any further ado, here is the prompt:

Show your crafting/art/sewing/knitting/crochet works in progress and the projects that you want to tackle in the next few months. What's on your cutting table? What's in your knitting basket? Did you just buy four new skeins of yarn for that shawl you've been meaning to make? Is there a canvas in the corner of your room just begging for some paint? Show us what you've been up to and what you are planning. 

Ok, before I start, can I just say how much I love love love love this prompt!! It's like the Professor read my mind! I am oh so guilty of crafting (and the half finished or not even started projects that entails) along with hoarding (don’t forget the hoarding!). In fact, I have an entire corner I have affectionately dubbed the "crafting corner"; one because that's an alliteration and I love those and two because I really don't know how else to refer to the growing glob of projects I’m accumulating. Just this month, I actually got myself a small table that way I could keep all the crafts I'm working on in one place. Here’s a nice pic of it:
I know, I know not that glamorous and a bit messy but it's a new addition
I'm still getting used to it :)
Now, in regards to my projects, I actually have a bit of a system so let me give you a quick run. Basically, I have two big (completely full) boxes of projects (kinda like an inventory). I’ve cataloged what is in each one here and here (there's also one more box but shh, I like to tell myself there are only two). But those are like my master checklists; they have all my crafty/creative stuff in one place. I like having them for reference; they make me feel organized (and sane). Plus they’re good blackmail; I have recently put an embargo on myself that I won’t buy any more fabric or crafty stuff until one (or some) of these box projects have been taken care of. So far this plan has been working. The crafting and buying is on hold for now (thanks a lot physics!). Usually it’s just one (and I think you all know which one that is ;). Honestly, I like having the boxes and checklists because they give me a nice system. I have a good idea of what’s going on: what I already own, what’s in progress, what needs repair, what I should be working on, etc.
Left: The 2 boxes making their first appearance. 
Top Right: Current Projects
Bottom Right: A glimpse into Box 3
So that’s what I’ve got planned (future-wise) but in terms of what in IP (in progress) as of right now, that’s in this other box (are you starting to see a trend here? I like boxing things). I keep that box on my crafting table and take projects out as I go. Currently, I have two skirts I’m trying to make. One is from this cloth I found thrifting and the other is this very cheap but too big dress I bought in Kohls. I’m hoping to finish those up really soon though and then hopefully start on some jewelry making (my pliers recently broke so I’m waiting on some new ones). Soo yeah, that’s what I’ve got going. How about you? Do any of you have a system to keep things in check or do you just do projects on a whim? What are you all working on?




P.S.  Hope you enjoyed the photos! They're not that great but I'm working on it! Haha you  may have noticed I don't normally have lots of photos (camera, quality, time, etc. issues) but I'm trying to incorporate them more this year. We'll see how it goes! :)

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Resolutions Update

Remember those New Years & Bat Fit resolutions I made?  Yeah, don't worry, me neither.
So to give everyone a much needed reminder. I'd basically resolved to:

1-Manage my time better
2-Do better academically
3-Think bout my future
4-Be creative
5-Be adult-ish

6-Lose 20 pounds
7-Exercise
8-Eat better
9-Sleep better
10-Blog better

Mmm, man, I wish I could say I've been following them but to be totally honest, classes started, things got stressful, and I proceeded to completely forget about these. Hahaha. Oops.

On the plus side, I kinda made some progress on a few of these. I took the bus for the first time (went to school and came back all by myself. Woo for being a grown up!). I went to jury duty, got my first key made (fun fact, I got a key to our research lab before I got a house key. Haha how weird is that? I like to joke it shows how committed I am to science XD), and am going to take my DMV test on Monday. So yay seems like I'm doing really well on #5 on the list.

Plus, I've been challenging myself to do something that kinda scares me at least once a month. You know small things (like talking to strangers in the elevator or telling someone what I honestly think) to get myself to step out of my comfort zone and trying something new. It's been a bit scary but also exciting and fun. I've learned a lot. I think I'd also count that as being adult-ish and creative, too. I've also been keeping a jar where I put in good things that have happened to me (thanks Professor Z for that wonderful idea!) and been thinking bout my blog so I think that gets #4 & #10 a tad too. I've prioritized sleep (#9) over all-nighters (#2) a few times as well so I'm not sure whether that counts or not. It's like I kept one resolution at the expense of the other haha.

To be real though, the other numbers I haven't even thought about. The most glaring is #1 Time Management. The more reckless I am about how I spend my time, the more I realize how valuable and important it is. It's like this academic session was a colossal mess and all because I couldn't get my time in order. So yeah. I've really got to work on that. My eating and exercising could use some help, too. I haven't done anything remotely physical and swing from the extremes of either eating too much or too little (aka starving myself. so no bueno). That needs some overdue attention. Not to mention, I'm running away from my academics and future again. So yeah. I guess I could use some work on a lot of these but for now, I'm just going to celebrate my successes with some soup and pledge for better tomorrow.

How have your resolutions been coming? Let me know in the comments below! :)

Saturday, January 10, 2015

Third Box Checklist

Guess who has another box of crafts to do? XD Yup, me. Anywhoo, here's the list of stuff in this one:
1. Gray kyrta
2. HJP Turtlenecks
3. Color Block Shirt
4. Turtlenecks
5. Pattern Black Shirt
6. Black lace
7. Black & White lace
8. Hawaiian Fabrics (3)
11. Black Blouse
12. Blue Pattern Jacket
13. Black & White Shirt (w/ xx pattern)
14. Black & Purple & Gray Checkered Shirt
15. Wooden Penguins
16. Spikes
17. Jewels (Black ones)
18. Jewelry to make
a. Gold Geometric Shapes
b. Eyes
c. Fler de iris
d. Necklace
19. Joanne’s place fabric (black w/ pattern)
20. Pearls

Wednesday, December 31, 2014

NY Goals & Bat Fit

1. Practice more conscious and effective time management.
I’ve realized the only reason I never get to do the things I really want to do (like blog, sew, see friends, etc.) is because I don’t have time for them and that’s a direct result of poor planning and procrastination. By wasting time (internet, TV, etc.) when I should be working, I’m taking away from time I could be doing something I actually like. So this is a big deal; if I can just exercise some self-control, I can possibly accomplish more of what I want to in the same time.

2. Aim for better grades and academic goals.
I might’ve let my priorities shift a bit this past year to just taking care of myself (both mentally and physically). And while that’s all fine and dandy (I’m still alive, yay!), I think it’s time to direct the focus back on my education and doing the absolute best I can in my classes. My record in college has been splotchy at best so let’s try to finish strong!

3. Think about and address the future.
This is really just facing the big question of what will I do after college. I need to address this question pronto and think of possibilities of what I can do. Researching career options, grad programs, and coming up with a 5 year plan are all good places to start. Talking to the career counselor might also be a good idea too. Basically, as long as I don’t wait until the graduation day to answer this question, I’m fine.

4. Spend more time doing creative projects & crafts.
I have like 3 boxes full of fabric, beads, creative projects, and little “things to do” (as evidenced by my sewing and craft checklists), it’s about time I did them. Hopefully, if I can uphold goal #1 of time management, I can get to these as well. That way I’ll be able to knock out this goal as well. Yay for double dipping!

5. Embrace my adult responsibilities.
Let’s face it: I’m not getting any younger. Every year, I’m just getting older, it’s time I start being a grown up. This means more taking care of myself and less depending on everyone else to do it for me (aka cooking, cleaning, making my own lunches, finding my own transportation, making my own decisions, etc.). Not going to lie, this one is going to be the least fun but the most necessary.

The next few goals are specifically for Bat Fit.

6. Lose 20 pounds.
A bit self-explanatory. I’ve always been a bit chubbier than average and fatter than I’d like. So, rather than waste away another year wishing I was fitter but doing nothing, the New Year feels like a good time as any to make some healthy changes. Everyone says your 20s are your prime; I should at least look and feel like that before it’s gone!

7. Exercise regularly.
I don’t care if this means going to the gym three times a week or just doing sit ups during commercials. Basically, I just want to make exercise is part of my weekly routine. I want to create an exercise habit and stick with it, no matter how small. It’s been a long-term goal of mine ever since P.E. class (so like 5-6 years) ended to incorporate exercise in my life and it’d be really awesome if I could accomplish it this year.

8. Eat healthier.
Pretty straight forward. Less processed junk, more whole natural foods. Plus, eating on time (aka on a schedule); I have a bad tendency to eat sporadically which is actually not that good for me. It means I either starve myself or eat more than I need to be full. So I have to really watch that. It helps that I have to read up on nutrition for the class I’m teaching in spring. Not only am I learning but it’s also really motivating me to make positive changes.

9. Sleep routinely.
A fairly simple goal. Long story short, my sleep schedule is all whack. I’m either sleeping past noon in break or staying up until sunrise during school. I’m really bad at sleeping (and waking up) on time which usually translates into being sleep-deprived or missing my morning duties. So yeah. I really have to work on this (is it just me or are you seeing a time management trend here? Haha practically half my goals could be solved with good prioritizing/planning).

10.  Blog regularly.
Basically, just blog more often and more good content (aka less rambling apologies about how I haven’t blogged in forever).


So there you have it, those are my goals for this coming year. What about all of you? Do we have any of the same goals? Or do you have some less cliché ones? :) Let me know in the comments below!

Dude, I'm really loving this Bat Fit design, the bat trim is just gorgeous.
So fabulous!

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Looking Forward

Greetings Readers!
How's everyone doing? I hope you all had a fantastic holiday season. I had fun catch-up reading everyone’s blogs; so many exciting updates (big congrats to Dr. Z)! My last post was about taking a hiatus and while I wouldn't say I'm officially back (yet), I thought what the heck, why not make just one last post for 2014 before it's over.

Speaking of which, can you believe it? 2014 is already over! Right when I was getting used to writing 14! In any case, it's definitely been a crazy and turbulent year. I've had a lot of ups (cool teaching program) and downs (spraining my ankle) and overall it's been an okay year. I've grown a lot as a person and gotten more comfortable with myself but there's still so much to do and see! I’ve taken some big chances (changing majors yet again) but the learning and improving doesn’t stop there! And that’s exactly what I'm hoping to do this coming year: challenge myself to grow even more.

Realizing it's going to be my last year of undergrad has been difficult for me to come to terms with. It all seems so bizarre; I've always gone to school and been a student. That's always been my number one priority. What's going to happen when that paradigm is fundamentally shifted? I feel like this past year I finally reached a place where I was comfortable in college (heck, I was even enjoying it), but right when I'd settled in, I got the rude awakening that in just a year's time the tables are going to turn yet again. Trying to think about what lies ahead after this makes me so anxious and worried. Just attempting to plan for that future is daunting and scary but I know it has to be done and the sooner I deal with it, the better. 

I'm definitely guilty of trying to run away from real change; I’ll move things around in my room, try new cuisines, and throw out old clothes but when it comes to actual radical change, I shrink away. I’ll postpone growing up (cough cough not learning how to drive or do taxes or what APR is) and making much-needed changes to my life (cough cough eating healthier, moving out, etc.) because it's just too much to handle to me. The unknown is so risky and intimidating and rather than facing it, I like to retreat to the comfort and familiarity of my current routine; that option is always so alluring and more importantly, convenient and easy.

But the truth is there’s nothing to gain in that approach: in just staying the same. Nothing ever changes. Like yeah, my life right now is pretty good and I’m super grateful for everything, but I just feel like it could be better, I could be better. There’s a certain security and safety in doing what you’ve always done but at what cost? You’re giving up all these fabulous possibilities. If you never step out of your comfort zone, you never realize your true potential. You’ve just stagnated.


It reminds me of this really insightful quote my trig teacher once told me (and had up on her wall), “Even if you're on the right track, you'll get run over if you just sit there”* Sometimes the most glorious rewards come when you take a risk, when you go out on a limb and do something daring and crazy. And hey, even if it doesn’t work out, at least you tried, right? You’ll have an answer and some insights instead of the regrets and “what-ifs” (ugh those are the worst). And I think that’s my next big challenge. Trying to encourage, embrace, and adjust more easily to groundbreaking change. Like, learning to allow and accept it rather than ignoring or avoiding it. 

So, in that vein, I want to announce my new goals for 2015 (including my Bat Fit goals!). They’re including in the next post (partly because I wanted to give them their own post and also I wrote too much in this one, bwhaha). Let me know what you think of them in the comments! Any suggestions are welcome!

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Hiatus Hibiscus

Hey peeps,
So I sortof accidentally ended up taking a hiatus as soon as classes started again (October). Sorry bout that but I think it's best if I just take a break and come back when things have calmed down in my life and I have some good content.
Until then, here's a hibiscus as the title promised!
From http://goo.gl/YY9cXb
Bye for now! Hope you all fare well!!

Thursday, October 30, 2014

Writing your own Murder Mystery

I know this is a bit belated but better late than never, I suppose! I really hope this helps someone out there write and plan their own murder mystery party! Have fun & enjoy!

Also, if any of you have any suggestions, feel free to shot me an email and let me know. I'd love to constantly be able to improve this guide!

How to write a Murder Mystery
A quick guide on how to write your own murder!
So in the process of researching for my murder mystery party, I found a lot of great guides and sources on how to throw a MMP but very few actually giving you instructions or tips on writing the actual mystery by yourself so I thought, why not help everyone out and give them a place to start?
Just a fair warning/disclaimer: I’ve only thrown one successful murder mystery party so I think it’s fair to say: I am by no means an expert on this or the only source. Feel free to consult elsewhere and make suggestions. I’d love to improve! :)
1-      Make decisions.
Decide what you want. Murder Mystery Parties come in a variety of shapes and flavors so spend some time beforehand choosing how it’ll go down (Will you have a theme? How prominent will it be? Should guests come in costume? Stay in character the whole time? How many key players will there be?). Be sure to take your guests and means into account while you’re figuring things out.

2-      Pick a victim
Right off the bat, just come up with the murder. Who’s being murdered? How and with what? And where? (When is optional; in these parties the murder is typically right before the party hence you spend the party solving the murder)
Note: You can decide who did it and why in this step too if you want but personally what worked for me was to wait and decide that later.
Try to give the victim a good back story here. Usually the person murdered is pivotal to the whole party and the entire reason for why everyone is here in the first place (aka she’s the hostess, the bride, etc.) so use those details to your advantage and piece together a story. If your victim premise is too weak, the story will fall apart quickly.

3-      Come up with characters
This one requires a little creativity. Depending on how many guests you have, you want to come up with a persona for each of them to play. This is personally the trickiest part in my book. Try to write characters with your guests in mind so that people feel comfortable enough to go along with the game. If not, people will be uncomfortable in roles they aren’t used to and it’ll be awkward trying to play along (or they’ll just refuse).

4-      Characters (Part 2)
The most important part is giving everyone a motive. Make sure there’s some bad blood among everyone & the victim that way everyone will have a reason to be suspicious of each other.

Also, it helps to give everyone a reasonable amount of backstory as in their own little story. It really fleshes out each character and makes them more than just a silly stereotype or caricature.  Try not to overdo it though; the main focus should be the murder. Plus you want to leave some room so your guests can interpret and add their personality to the character. You just want to make sure you have three dimensional characters.

Note: This is also a good chance to include some side stories into the mix. It always makes things more interesting (bribes, affairs, double-crossing, different identities, you know the usual scandalous stuff)

5-      Find Evidence
I liked coming up with evidence that way there were some concrete clues leading up to the killer. A few of them came from the crime scene, others were found around the dining area or with the guests. These are really useful for trying to key in on one or two suspects to make them more likely to be the killer. OR if you want to throw in a game-changer, you can just use parts of the evidence to throw people off and make it seem like the killer isn’t the one who did it. It’s totally up to you.

6-      Unveil the killer
Decide who the murderer is. Based on the awesome sauce advice of this lovely lad, I also save this step for last but ultimately it’s your call. If you find it easier to write the mystery knowing who is the killer go for it.
In my personal experience, I tried that but when I went back to look over the material, it dawned me that someone else was much more believable of a killer and had more evidence stacked against them so I ended up switching for the other character. Based on that experience, I’d recommend you pick the killer last.
Survey the information, the evidence, and everyone’s motives and then pick the person who is most believable as the killer aka the one with the best motives and reasons to want to kill the victim. Once you do that, I’d go back and tweak some details here and there so that there are enough clues for people to get who did it.

7-      Write it!
Now that you have the whole story portion figured out, you’ve got to find a way to write it into a murder mystery format!
This part can be hard for some. You might not know where to start or what to do so here’s the format I followed.
1-Invitations
2-Rules
3-Character Info Sheets
4-Character Booklets
So first off, just write general invitations introducing the context and settings to your guests. Send that out with RSVP dates. Next, write up the general rules or guidelines you have for all your guests and send that out as well. These should be rules that you want everyone to follow thus, you only need to write one general copy that you can send to everyone. After that, everything gets specific to each person. The Character Info Sheets are sent to each guest and they are meant to be helpful guides in what to wear, how to act, and a little backstory for them to read and prepare for their character. You can send all these things before the actual party date.
The next sets of papers, the Character Booklets are a whole different cookie so next bullet point!

8-      Character Booklets
I’d say this is the hardest part.
Do not send these beforehand. It’s probably not a good idea because if you do, not much suspense will be left the night of. Sometimes it’s hilarious just watching how the characters themselves react to revelations about themselves. So, to leave some fun for the party date itself, I’d hold off on sending these. Instead, hand them to everyone the night of. If you’re doing rounds, make sure you have a way to guarantee that your guests don’t get too excited and read ahead. That just ruins the fun. (I did this by using different colored papers for each round and sealing every paper so it would be really obvious if you weren’t on the right round paper or reading ahead)
I organized the booklets in rounds (much like this source ). I personally found it easiest to organize each round around a specific part of the murder.
Round 1 was getting to know everyone (mingling in character)
Round 2 was murder weapon & where & when.
Round 3 was revealing motives for everyone and some evidence.
Round 4 was revealing more evidence, some alibis, and side stories.
Round 5 was more honing in on the killer and some mudslinging.
Some more tips on how to actually write the Booklets:
Æ      Include some action. It makes life more interesting. People getting up from the table for secret meetings, demonstrations and fights. These really do add something. Try making it outrageous and fun. You guys are supposed to be having a good time!
Æ      Give everyone a little part. Sometimes it’s okay to give someone frivolous or unimportant things to do or say; it’s okay. It’s actually funnier that way!
Æ      Don’t give anyone too much to say though! Try to limit it to 3 points per round or else it’ll get too complicated for one person and he/she might miss revealing key information.
Æ      Try to rile people up and get them to react to each other. This is nice, too, because it gets rid of needing to order who goes first, second, etc. in the round, you just have people going after someone else. It also makes sure people pay attention to what’s going on around them and when to go.

9-      Trial Run
Personally, I cannot stress how important this part is. I’m not saying go through the whole murder mystery once by yourself but it’s important to have someone read it over so that you can be sure it makes sense, flows logically, and works. I had quite a few people look over the character info sheets and booklets which really helped me figure out what I needed to fix or take out. If you want to make sure your story works the night of, you’ve got to make sure it works on other people who aren’t inside your head as well. So whether that’s running through it once with a group of friends or just having a friend look it over and send revisions, be sure you get another pair of eyes and another brain on it so you can pinpoint your strengths and weaknesses.

10-  Have fun!
Writing your own murder mystery is SUPER hard and grueling but also so amazingly profoundly rewarding (plus you’ll save yourself a lot of money ;). It’s so worth it when guests compliment your creativity or confess that they think you nailed a character. So just remember to enjoy yourself and not take things too seriously especially during the whole writing process when you’ll probably be very miserable and kicking yourself in the shins for taking on such a huge challenge.  It’s a pretty daunting task but it’s totally do-able and knowing that really helps you power through. Just remember that probably no one is going to catch all the mistakes or issues that you are obsessing over. They’ll get a lot of fun out of it either way. Trust me so have a good time! :)

A few parting tips:
Æ      Give yourself A LOT of time to do this. In fact, come up with a time estimate and then multiply it by three. I kid you not, these take forever to write (which almost explains why people charge you so much for them) and trying to figure it out at the very berry last minute is NOT fun and doesn’t work out well. So make sure you have plenty of cushion that way if something goes wrong/isn’t working, you have enough leeway to fix it.


Æ      If you are doing a specific theme (e.g. 1920s, Victorian, etc.), make sure you give yourself some extra time to go back and make sure all your content is historically accurate. Trust me; you want to get these details down so you don’t have the embarrassment of a guest correcting you. Plus, it can also be a nice chance to drop a few historic tidbits to make the theme come out more. Just adding little finishing touches like word choice or music can really make a good mystery stand out as great!

And that's it! I know it seems a bit long but trust me, if you follow it through, everything will turn out great! Cheers! Happy partying!

Friday, October 10, 2014

Love Life

So I was just surfing the web and I came across urban dictionary's definition of rejection; it's actually pretty hilarious (and a good answer for all those people who keep asking about my relationship status and I don't know how to describe how one-sided/non-existent it is).


This is an accurate gif of my reaction to this:
Oh haha that's so funny *sobs uncontrollably*

Also this author gets me:
http://www.mcsweeneys.net/authors/connie-sun

Monday, September 29, 2014

September's Homework Assignment

Good morning, everyone! I hope you're all excited for Autumn and all the coming adventures that entails (the colors, Halloween, holidays, etc.). So right on schedule, here's this month's Homework Assignment hosted courtesy the most gracious Curious Professor Z. For this month, the prompt was a bit more open-ended which was really fun and I had a great time coming up with my own interpretation. The assignment was:

To interpret the following poem through fashion, makeup, art, photography, etc.:
October gave a party;
The leaves by hundreds came,—
The Ashes, Oaks, and Maples,
And leaves of every name.
The sunshine spread a carpet,
And every thing was grand;
Miss Weather led the dancing;
Professor Wind, the band....
The sight was like a rainbow
New-fallen from the sky....
~George Cooper, "October’s Party"
 

I went ahead and read the whole poem which has such a sweet, sweet ending and the parts that stuck out to me were the great descriptions of the leaves: just how beautiful they were and how they come together into this mesmerizing sight of a party. I especially loved the detail of "The party closed at sundown/ And everybody stayed." That line just really spoke to me because if you've ever thrown/gone to a party and people actually want to stay after it's all over that clearly means they really really enjoyed it and kinda don't want it to end. I've had parties like that and it's just really warming and flattering to know your guests had such a good time; it means that the party was a job well done. Random aside, but I'm actually going to be planning a Halloween party this October for work!  What a funny coincidence, right?! It'll be the first Halloween I host a party! How exciting!! Squee~

Ahem anyways, back to to the poem & assignment. I wanted to find a way to combine those parts of the poem I really liked and came up with this great idea for a drawing. Art just felt like the immediate perfect fit for this assignment; it was my first choice and I'm really glad I stuck with it because it came out quite nicely. It's been a while since I've drawn so it might be a little rough but I hope it's fine nonetheless. I do all my pieces in pencil on regular paper because I'm on a budget. Plus I chose to stick with two dimensional leaves because a) 3D is hard for me and b) it gave me a lot more surface area to work with in terms of design. If I'd gone with 3D, I'd spend more of my time trying to learn how to warp patterns than getting to draw them. While it is originally in color, my scanner only does black & white so I hope that's alright. In any case, here's my work:

I call it "Lingering Leaves"
You can click on it to zoom in if you'd like.
And because I was bored and the scanner didn't do a good job the first time, I even put together a little gif of the piece (in a bad scan, good scan fashion haha):
So there you have it! That's my take on October's Party. What do you think? How would you celebrate the festivities that await in October? Let me know your thoughts in the comments below! :)

Thursday, September 25, 2014

Sewing Checklist

So this is somewhat related to the Crafts Checklist I wrote up. Same backstory except this list just focuses on the fabric and sewing projects I have piling up. I made myself promise that I will not buy anymore fabric until this list is exhausted (or at least halfway done) so I'm really hoping I can get these done pronto because I just looove buying fabric! I mean, who doesn't?! It's so much fun: the excitement, the squeals of finding the perfect one, the hopeful promise, the brimming possibilities --gah so many emotions! Shopping fabrics is the best (except when it comes time to pay... then your wallet cries and cries).

Ahem, in any case I'll link a project back here once I finish it or cross it off if I end up throwing it out. This list might take me a while seeing how I'm just a newbie to sewing (I made a pillow cover though! Isn't it pretty??) but I hope you'll stick with me to see them through. In the meantime, here are a few someecards about sewing that I think succinctly summarize my love affair with fabric.

Sewing Projects
  1. Black & Grey formal dress
  2. Black & Grey casual dress
  3. Teal Fabric
  4. Costume Black Dress
  5. Pink and Black Roses stiff fabric
  6. Box of Spikes
  7. Brown shirt (w/ flower design)
  8. Black and White Floral skirt
  9. Maroon fabric (for a steampunk dress)
  10. Psychedelic Print (pink, red, white, blue)
  11. Red Rose Kurta
  12. Silky Satin Fabric
    1. Pink & Black
    2. White roses on black
    3. Navy stripes
  13. Psychedelic Print (black and white)
  14. Psychedelic Print (purple pillow)
  15. Black net sleeves
  16. Dark velvet skirt
  17. 2 shirts
  18. Book Covers (3)
  19. Ruffled/Puffy Sleeves
  20. 3 patterns

Crafts Checklist

A little while ago I was cleaning out my room and it came to my attention I still had a huge pile of creative projects to do. Some are big, others small but they were all sitting there waiting for me to complete. Thus, I sorted through them (put them neatly into one box :) and came up with a handy list so I can systematically tackle them one-by-one. Some of the items are actual projects (#9 and #52) while others are more just a note of the supplies I have (#12 and #48) but whatever the case, this is my master copy of them all! I'm hoping to do one or two a week to relax and also stretch my creativity muscles. Plus, I'm not letting myself buy new artsy fun hobby stuff until I finish up with these ones sooo let's hope I get these done soon!
I'll link a project back here when I do it or cross it off if I end up not doing it.
But that's about all there is to it. Are there any projects you want to see me do first or any ideas you have for future ones? Let me know in the comments below!

Crafty Projects Checklist:
  1.  Leftover Lanyards
  2. 3 Bracelets to fix
  3. Rose Candle
  4. Teddy Bear Remains
  5. White Box
  6. Beads Box (8+ projects within)
  7. Finger-paint palette
  8. Transparent Telephone
  9. Black Light Studio
  10. More Beads (~4 projects)
  11. Stencils
  12. Paint
  13. Wooden Maze
  14. Fake arsenal holder
  15. Goggles
  16. Earrings Maker pack
  17. Shell Bracelet
  18. Domino pieces
  19. Circle pendants
  20. Little bottles
  21. Keychains rings (~14)
  22. 3 pinmakers
  23. Chandelier repair
  24. Buttons (~21)
  25. White Bow
  26. Misc. Silver Chains
  27. Backpack buttons
  28. Chokers (4)
  29. Rusty Gold Star Jewelry
  30. Chinese Coins Jewelry (14)
  31. Gold necklace
  32. Pearl Earrings
  33. Silver Flower earrings
  34. Moon earrings
  35. Wood earrings
  36. Earring parts (~6 pairs)
  37. 3 hair barret clips
  38. 3 keychain pendants
  39. Pirate-like Beads/Pins
  40. Military pins
  41. Rusty Brown Steampunk chain
  42. Broken compass
  43. Collected gears
  44. Broken earrings to repair
  45. Silver pendants
  46. Tiny Birdhouse
  47. 1 bag of beads (~4)
  48. Film Pile
    1. Video cassettes
    2. Old film sheets  
    3. CDs 
    4. Floppy disks  
    5. Kodacrome images
  49. Headband
  50. Keys & Locks
  51. Big Brown necklace
  52. Plumeria necklace
  53. Pearl necklace
  54. Purple earrings
  55. Triangles necklace

Tuesday, September 23, 2014

News

Hello there, dear readers! How's life? I hope everyone's doing well.

I'm doing better myself. I've been keeping my foot tightly wrapped which has been helping a lot; it’s helped me regain some of my walking so I can even do a few household tasks (major yay!). But my knee on the opposite uninjured side has started acting up though (I think it's Runner's Knee). I figure it's just a by-product of the foot so I'm trying to take it easy. I got (aka: was forced to buy) some athletic sneakers, too --which cost far too much considering how ugly they look-- but hey, health is important. My recovery is going too slow and it's really hard being patient with it at this point but I'm trying hard. For now, my main goal is to just be better by the start of school. I’m really hoping & praying for that but we’ll have to see.

Thanks to my increased mobility, I've also gotten around to doing some of my chores and work which has made me much happier. It's like I'm finally snapping out of the sluggish rut I was stuck in (another yay!). I finally got around to major cleaning my room (& the bathroom) which was a big personal victory. My room was a complete disaster and its tumultuous state was probably a big reason I was down in the dumps. Forcing myself to tackle it piece by piece was incredibly satisfying. I re-organized the layout, made a new shelf (with ikea instructions), threw out lots of old junk, made a pillow cover, and even changed up my desk. And let me tell you, it felt sooo good. I'm so glad I did it. I might not be able to go out much but cleaning up has been nice. Doing all this has really made me start feeling like myself again; I'm really hoping this is the start of me getting back to normal!

But I must confess, I've been watching a ton of TV though. I'm not really proud of that but hey, I figure what's a summer break without a little (aka way too much) mindless channel flipping. Sometimes it's nice to tune out of your own life and get lost in someone else’s. Funny story, we actually didn't have cable growing up so I never really sat around watching TV but our provider bundles it into the package so I'm finally getting to watch all the Disney channel and Nickolodeon I missed out on! Their new shows are interesting; I'm not a fan of all of them but some of them are good (Liv & Maddie, Henry Danger, Jessie, etc.). Tangent: Has anyone else ever noticed how perfect everyone on Disney's hair is, though? It's TOO perfect!!! Oh, I also watched a nice indie film recently called Flawless. I've written a review about it here if you want to hear more on my thoughts about that.

In unrelated news, we unexpectedly got a pretty pair of parakeets! While they're both awfully quiet for birds, I find them very cute and adorable. They make me so happy. We have dog and cat allergies in our family so growing up we always had birds which is why I have a very special place in my heart for them (esp. budgies) so it's very exciting to have a pair again after many years of none. They're still shy and guarded but I'm hoping that giving them a little time will help them warm up to us. 

Alright, that’s all I’ve got for now. I know it’s not much or super exciting but sometimes it’s nice to be grateful for what you’ve got (cough cough thank God for your health cough cough) and appreciate what’s going right (instead of focusing on what’s wrong). Or at least that’s what I’m trying to do through this very prolonged injury. Hopefully next time I’ll have ever better news but until then, ta-ta!